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Malem ini hampir jam setengah 11 malem gue ngetik ini karena kebosenan, gak ada yang bisa diajak ngobrol.. yasudah.. i'm aloner ;A; gue ditinggalin sama semua huwaaaaaaaah........

Btw, akhir-akhir ini pikiran gue selalu berkutat sama hal-hal gak jelas yang berseliweran disekitar gue.. 

Perubahan.. Yep!

Banyak banget perubahan yang gue alami sampai detik ini..

Gue bahkan bingung kalau sekarang udah 2012, gue masih ga nyadar aja gitu.. Kayaknya masih kemarin gue sama temen masa kecil gue Dion masih maen berdua keluyuran di komplek.

Tapi ternyata itu udah 10 tahun yang lalu ya..

Gue sama dia juga udah gak pernah ngobrol lagi semenjak kita masing-masing sibuk sama sekolah dan kehidupan baru kita masing-masing.

Dulu kayaknya tinggi gue 1m juga gak ada.. tapi sekarang.. lumayan lah pake high heels dikit udah bisa sepantaran sama nyokap. Hahahaha -_-

Dulu gue gak tau jerawat itu eksis di dunia ini... Sampe sekarang gemes banget saking imut2 nya (?) - -a

Gue juga baru nyadar kalo gue sekarang udah mau masuk SMA lagi..

Dulu gue inget banget baru pindah ke pulau Jawa ini, gue masih digendong-gendong sama bokap dan ngintilin kakak-kakak gue kemana aja..

Seinget gue juga dulu gue masih mainan boneka, boneka apa aja pasti langsung gue sabetin dan gue kasih tunjuk bokap buat dibeliin.

Hingga akhirnya gue kelas 6 boneka-boneka gue itu gue telantarin dan sekarang berapa karung gitu dibuang entah kemana. Yeah.. pemborosan.

Walaupun sekarang gue gaktau kesambet apaan.. Hmm, notabene gue dulu waktu kelas 6 sampe kelas 8 gak peduli sama sekali, sama hal2 macem boneka, nail art, gadget, dress dan lain-lain..

Dulu cuma pake kaos, celana dan sendal jepit aja gue pede gitu ke mall..

Sekarang..

Gue gila rilakkuma, dan demen banget sama nail art.. Hahaha

Gue juga dulu koleksi kertas-kertas binder buat ditukerin ama temen2 gue..

Dan ketika gue inget lagi..

Gue kok useless banget sih ngabisin duit cuma buat kertas2 gak jelas dan itu gak gue isi sama tulisan gue sama sekali. Lagi, gak efisien.

Dulu jaman kakak2 gue pada sekolah, mereka tiap belajar pasti gue pantengin (?) dengan sok pinternya gue bacain text book / LKS mereka tanpa ada kata bosan.

Sekarang gue kalo liat textbook gue..

Idih amit2 .......

/disambit

Dulu juga pulsa gue diisiin ama bokap..

Sekarang.......

Mana ada yang mau beliin gue pulsa........

Dulu gue cengeng banget, dan kalo sekali maen ke luar rumah pasti balik2 nangis..

Semenjak itu gue lebih baik maen depan komputer daripada main sama temen2 diluar..

Semenjak itu juga gue jadi anak rumahan..

Sampe sekarang... /hening

Dulu maenan gue maenan karet, congklak, petak umpet, cingciripit (?)

Sekarang gue speechless sendiri liatin anak2 jaman sekarang maenannya iPad, BB dan gadget2 mahal yang bahkan gue yang udah 15 taon idup aja gapunya..... ckckckck

Dulu gue paling sebel sama cowo

Rese

Nyebelin

Ga mutu

/dikeroyok semua cowo/

Tapi kalo gue ga suka cowo sekarang justru itu yang serem, yegak? wkwkwk

Dulu gue demen maen tengah hari bolong panas2an sama adek gue..

Sekarang..

"Mel, jalan yuk.."

"Males, lo aja sono sendiri"

"IH!"

Gue kira gue masih kelas 7..

Di MOS kayak orang gila sama kakak2 kelas, dan kenalan sama temen2 gue.. Kelas 7 itu lucu.. Masih pada polos, mana ada namanya musuh-musuhan.. Eh ada deng yang waktu itu ada orang yang gue diemin sampe ada setahunan lebih, baru ngobrol lagi pas kelas 9 semester 2. XDD

Di kelas 7 juga gue tau maen point blank :p

Gue kira gue masih kelas 8..

Musuhan--walau gak bisa dibilang musuhan--sama temen sampe kelas 9, kenal deket sama 2 cowo sampe akhirnya gue memilih buat gapernah kenal mereka lagi..

Well, disitu gue baru ngerti..

Apa namanya persahabatan sama cinta.. Apa namanya ego dan sakit hati.

Gue gak mau ketemu sama cerita yang belibet kayak gitu lagi.. Itu semacem trauma.. bukan.. itu rasanya kayak lo lagi terbang di langit dan tiba2 sayap lo ilang. Secara paksa... Sama orang yang lo kenal deket..dan jatoh kebawah.. Sakit bangeeet. /curhat

Gue kira gue masih kelas 9...

Semenjak akhir kelas 8 gue milih buat ga mau deket sama cowo siapa-siapa lagi kecuali temen maen..

Fokus ujian fokus ujian, walaupun hampir tiap hari pulang telat gegara nongkrong di KFC..

Speak nya sih tugas kelompok sambil makan siang huahaha xD

Dan ga kerasa gue bentar lagi udah mau 16 tahun aja, pake baju putih abu dan nanti juga ga bakal kerasa kalo gue udah kuliah bahkan sampe kerja nanti.. Yang gue sadari bahwa semua ini adalah siklus kehidupan--yang macem roda. Ada saat lo keinjek dibawah dan ada saatnya lo berkuasa diatas. Semuanya ada waktunya bukan?

Time flies so fast, so i must do the chance as good as it possible. Kkk~

Another postingan gajelas without conclusion.. :D

Xoxo,

mell.

Especially for You

Especially for youI wanna let you know what I was going throughAll the time we were apart I thought of youYou were in my heart, my love never changedI still feel the same
Especially for youI wanna tell you I was feeling that way tooAnd if dreams were wings, you knowI would have flown to you to be where you areNo matter how far and now that I’m next to you
No more dreaming about tomorrowForget the loneliness and the sorrowI’ve got to say it’s all because of you
And now were back together, togetherI wanna show you my heart is oh so trueAnd all the love I have is especially for you
Especially for youI wanna tell you, you mean all the world to meHow I’m certain that our love was meant to beYou changed my life, you showed me the wayAnd now I’m next to you
I’ve waited long enough to find youI wanna put all the hurt behind youAnd I wanna bring out the love inside you, oh, and
Now were back together, togetherI wanna show you my heart is oh so trueAnd all the love I have is especially for you
You were in my heart, my love never changedAnd now that I’m next to youNo more dreaming about tomorrowForget the loneliness and the sorrowI’ve got to say it’s all because of you

Another fluffy song from MYMP xD

I love this Philippine band so much, i love the vocal and their genre too.. And their songs really have deep meanings in each lyrics ~

Just wanna sing this song XD

This is the first song I heard from MYMP, still my favorite since first time I heard it ;)

Xoxo,

mell.

hmm..

keep it..

because i believe.

leave it..

this flower will dead.

i cant see..

but i can feel it.

its a fake world, everything seems so fake
and hanging myself..

but
i hangs on my faith.

they keep telling me to let it go..

i just cant help and still waiting.

you dont know..

its fragile inside.

"keep my feeling, because i am here trying to do the same." :')

this is one thing that u said, i always mind it whenever i'm down hehehe :'D

.....ada yang ngerti maksud dari tulisan random saya ini? Semoga nggak ada ya.. Saya gak punya diary makanya nulis di blog, ehe he he he.. maklum la kertas mahal gegara penebangan liar-_______-"

Mungkin saya random, saya labil or apalah itu.. dan saya gak bisa lihat kenyataan.. dan mungkin saya juga terlalu bodoh...? :( hehehe

i dont want u to read this one, hahahaha.

13062012

Setelah melihat kembali foto ini, gue bener-bener ngerasa gue banci kamera..

I wish I'll meet people as kind as you guys out there :)

Me n Nael 

Nael sama Ailee.....
Ailee mata panda-______-

Me and Gabby, duo mata panda -__-

Beratus-ratus kali take dan yang dapet cuma 1 foto ini.. Lewi, gue terlalu bagus buat foto bareng elu. 8D

This pose.. its like dejavu! Hahaha!

"Wi, ayo foto." "Yok." "EH GUE IKUT IKUT IKUTTTT!"
JEPRET!
"Ngacoin aja si mel.."
"..."

With Rio, manusia yang paling susah diajak foto selama 3 tahun ini.
Red and White Roses :3

Guys, thank you for this 3 years <3
Wish we all get the best in senior high school!

Xoxo,

mell.

Today

Hari ini acara perpisahan sekolah gue

Hari ini resmi juga gue lepas dari seragam putih biru

Hehehehe.....

WELCOME PUTIH ABU ;D

Monster......... GRAWR

Helloooo.. Akhirnya gue dapet pencerahan buat ngisi blog ini hahahaha. Kali ini gue gak bakal nyeritain tentang orang utan yang lagi mojok, simpanse yang ngamuk ataupun Sandy Tumiwa yang maen di Cowboy Show di Safari.. Well, setelah berulang kali nginget kejadian itu gue merasa gue bener-bener bocah gak jelas juntrungannya -__-

Jadi, berhubung Bigbang kemarin-kemarin ini baru comeback lagi dengan "Monster", gue bakal bahas lagu itu dari lirik dan MV-nya yang bener-bener kontroversial yang lagi anget jadi bahan omongan gue sama anak-anak kalo lagi ngumpul.

So, this is english lyrics translation of "Monster"!

[TOP]
It’s been a while. Seems like you’re doing better since I’ve seen you last.
You got prettier too, though you always looked beautiful in my eyes
[GD]
But you seem a little different today; you seem unusually cold
The gaze you put on me is full of pity, in front of you, I look small

[TOP]
I act like it’s fine, I try to change the subject.
[GD]
I have a lot I want to ask, but you cut me off.
[TOP]
Your hair flows in the wind, and it hits me on my cheeks and leave.
[GD]
You turn around and leave just like that, would I look silly if I try to hold you back?

[Taeyang]
I cant think of anything to say, Trembling, you take two steps back.
Your words that you are afraid of me, You are the one that makes me crazy

[Daesung]
I love you, baby i’m not a monster
You know the old me, When the time passes, I will have to disappear, You’ll know then baby
[Taeyang]
I need you, baby i’m not a monster
You know me, It ends, but if you leave me like this, I will die
I’m not a monster.

[Seungri]
You say, let us be together forever no matter what happens.
You say, let us be together when we’re happy and when we’re sad.
You don’t (won’t) say that tomorrow..
I say, let’s love today as if it’s the last day.

[GD]
Yo, the world without you is like a capital punishment
The world doesn’t go correctly without you
Your existence has become an incurable illness for me
[TOP]
Everyone may look at me with judging eyes,
but what really hurts is the fact that you have become a part of that ‘everyone.

[Daesung]
I love you, baby i’m not a monster
You know the old me, When the time passes, I will have to disappear, You’ll know then baby
[Taeyang]
I need you, baby i’m not a monster
You know me, It ends, but if you leave me like this, I will die
I’m not a monster.

[Seungri]
Don’t go, Don’t go, Don’t go, Don’t leave me
Don’t do this, Don’t do this, Don’t do this, You don’t seem to be yourself
[Daesung]
Still far apart, With love still divided
[Seungri]
Don’t look for me, Don’t look for me, Don’t look for me, Don’t look for me
Last, last, last
[Taeyang]
Please remember the me that stood next to you
Please don’t ever forget me

[Daesung]
I love you, baby i’m not a monster
You know the old me, When the time passes, I will have to disappear, You’ll know then baby
[Taeyang]
I need you, baby i’m not a monster
You know me, It ends, but if you leave me like this, I will die.
I’m not a monster.

[GD]
I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick.
I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick.

* credit to : http://michelia94.wordpress.com *

Jadi, pas pertama kali gue denger lagu ini, gue langsung keinget another ngenes song from Bigbang like Lies and Haru Haru. Udah gitu openingnya sama-sama rapnya GD n TOP kan.
Mulai dari intro gue udah suka banget sama lagu ini, beneran deh. Padahal gue kaga tau artinya apaan.
Dan akhirnya gue nanya om gugel dan dapatlah translate-an lagu ini seperti lirik di atas.

Ekspresi gue pas baca liriknya..
At first i was like, "omg lagunya sedih banget ya.." then turns to "HAHAHAHA YOU SO NGENES!" *siapin tameng dari timpukan para VIP*

"You got prettier too, though you always looked beautiful in my eyes"
Line TOP yang ini entah kenapa kerasa sedih banget. Feelnya kalo TOP suka banget sama cewe itu kerasa banget (?)



"The gaze you put on me is full of pity, in front of you, I look small"
Line GD yang ini bikin gue berpikir.. Se-perfect apa sih emangnya cewek itu sampe harus bertingkah macem gitu. OH GD TINGGALKAN SAJA DIA DAN JADI PACARKU UOOOOO




"You say, let us be together forever no matter what happens.
You say, let us be together when we’re happy and when we’re sad.
You don’t (won’t) say that tomorrow..
I say, let’s love today as if it’s the last day."

Cewenya PHP ya...

"Your existence has become an incurable illness for me"

Sounds so sweet yet hurts too. :'(

"Everyone may look at me with judging eyes,

but what really hurts is the fact that you have become a part of that ‘everyone."

I'm sorry dearest Choi Seunghyun, but..

INI NGENES BANGET. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA /ditampol bolak balik/

Oke, untuk lirik segitu aja yang bener-bener berkesan buat gue u.u

Tapi overall lagu Bigbang yang kayak gini tuh yang bener-bener bikin gue suka sama Bigbang. 

Gue udah nunggu lagu kayak gini dari Bigbang dari jaman Tell Me Goodbye btw -__-"

Nah, berhubung liriknya selesai mari kita bahas MV-nya!

Opening-nya itu sebuah lapangan yang kayaknya abis kena (atau lagi kena) serangan misil dari US kali ya, kayak fire rain gitu plus efek-efek gempa yang berbayang gitu (?)
Terus masuk deh intronya musik piano gitu, gue kira bakal ada TOP ngerap sambil maen piano tapi ternyata kaga (ya kali ngerap sambil maen piano pegimana). #patutdicatetsiapataukeluardiujiannasional


Kemudian muncullah TOP dengan mantel cokelatnya di balik kabel-kabel itu... HE'S SO FREAKIN HANDSOME OKAY. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I LIKE HIM THAT MUCH! KYAAAA TABI TABI TABI PUDING TELETABIII~~ /keliling pake skuternya Po/


Tapi seketika gue sweatdrop di tempat ketika GD muncul dengan rambut jamurnya...........
GD please, lu ganteng, lu imut, tapi kenapa style lu selalu bikin gue stres.....
KEMBALIKAN GD JAMAN BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER WOYYY /kebanyakan protes /dirajam
But, i admit that red haired GD is so hawwwwttt x3


Dan kemudian muncullah Mickey Mouse gagal kita............ No comment.

Yang bagian reff-nya itu Daesung! Dia kece banget serius deh, mana piercing di idungnya itu gede banget, macem lagi panjang-panjangan belalai sama gajah (?)
Dan gue sama temen gue sepakat kalo body Daesung itu sexy. HIHIHIHI.


Scene yang mereka nendang-nendangin patung itu juga kece.
Gue suka deh sama bajunya GD, dia kayak cosplay jadi Cloud Strife versi jamur gitu.. Bisa lah jadi G Strife, gue jadi Tifa nya deh.. *gakmelgakgitu*


Part-nya si Panda kesayangan gue 8D
Gue jadi inget obrolan gue sama temen gue yang lagi ngerumpiin Seungri..
"Eh lu tau gak Seungri ngehapus twitternya gegara apa?" tanya gue, temen gue menggeleng. "Gegara dia gak tahan sama mention dia isinya inggris doang, GAH."
"..................ANJIR BANGET MAKNAE EDAN HAHAHAHAHA."
Dan setelah berhenti ngakak dia nanya ke gue.
"Mel lu liat Seungri di Monster gak?"
"Liat, ngapa?"
"Rambutnya kayak burung onta tau gak.."
".....BURUNG ONTA HAHAHAHAHA. GUE LIATNYA MALAH KAYAK PENTOL KOREK."
"..............PENTOL KOREK HAHAHAHAHAHA."

Sabar ya, Ri..


Terus bagian GD ngerap di lapangan yang abis kena serangan US itu (abaikan), terus disambung sama rap nya TOP yang mukanya mendadak item setengah, terus TOP entah kenapa bisa nyangsang di puncak gunung es gitu.
LU ABIS NAEK SUKHOI APA PEGIMANA OY BISA NYANGSANG DISONO! OAO


Terus scene Taeyang lagi joget-joget di lapangan sambil nyanyi gitu.. Entah kenapa gue ngeliatnya kayak liat Mickey Mouse abis diputusin sama Minnie terus mabok dan dia joget-joget frustasi gegara putus gitu.
Jangan protes, gue itu Mickey-Minnie shipper dari kecil.


But but but, gue baru nyadar kalo mereka semua pake contact lens yang sama tipenya.. K they're very hawt with that look yet scary too..... Lupa ye mereka Monster.


NAH ENDINGNYA GUE GAK NGARTI.


Napa awalnya dari lapangan perang gitu tiba-tiba selese-selese GD keluar dari pintu dan itu isinya salju doang (macem pintu kemana saja gitu kayaknya, gue gak ngarti deh) DDX

Errr....

Sekian rambling gak jelas saya tentang kelima monster kece ini ~______~
Bigbang hwaiting! 8D
*pergi jauh-jauh sebelum dirajam VIPs*

Xoxo,

mell.

Thank You

As people come to your life, they must be out from your life too..

Although they only come just a moment in your life..

They're so precious because they must've been taught you something in your life..

With this, i wanna tell y'all something..

Thank you.

Thank you for being there with me, thank you for being my friends, thank you for loving me, thank you for caring to me, thank you for understand me, thank you because without y'all i'm going to be aloner..

Thank you.

Thank you for teaching me how to survive in this mean world, thank you for taught me how to love, thank you for cheer me up whenever i'm down, thank you for being patient with my selfishness and childishness, thank you for always make me smile, thank you for smile with my garing jokes, thank you not being upset when i'm teasing you, thank you for make me cry because your existence, thank you for everything guys.

I love you...

Maybe i just can't show it but i want y'all to know that my heart is truee <3

* But no matter where we will go far apart as our own path, we'll be back again one day <3 *

Xoxo,

mell.